Post by Sherlock Holmes on Feb 9, 2010 3:59:58 GMT -5
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Watson is gone, the house seems lonesome and strangely empty, and I don't understand why. Of course, he has gone to live in the countryside with his new wife, and thus his presence is gone from the house. I don't understand why I'm feeling like this. Watson is a friend, and I admit, he is my only friend, but should I really be this affected by his absence?
Observations:
I seem to forget that he is gone sometimes. I prepare a question in my head and start to ask him, then I remember and end up saddened. I definitely feel off somehow, and I don't like it.
Normal sleeping patterns seem to be beyond my reach. I can only sleep for one or two hours at most, after being awake for fourty-eight hours at the least. Currently, I haven't slept in almost four days. I understand that my normal sleeping habits are erratic at best, but this is just extreme.
More often than not, I fall into depression. Not even an experiment like this one can keep it at bay for long. I haven't touched the box on the mantle. I want to, yet I don't. Depression really isn't something I adore, and I want it to stop, but I don't want to resort to using cocaine. I feel that Watson would be appalled if I did. Is that the reason why I don't want to?
I cannot detach myself from this to focus on other things. The still silence in the house won't get out of my mind. I haven't touched his old room, either. It's as barren as it was when he left. I don't want to do anything with it.
I'm unsure of my own feelings. Why is this so hard to handle? I want to see him again. I miss him. Why is his absence affecting me this way?
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